Who invited me here?
How I arrived here?
I’m watching a fixed point…
I’m cold…
I’m trembling and weeping convulsively, swallowing the thorny air…
I’m trying to do not watch but my eyes are watching also shut…
I can't distinguish the black from the black…
A dreadful black that following me…
I wish to identify something in that dark chasm…
But I fear to discover something white there…
Because then everything will become without a color…
Inconceivable like my fears…
My shadows do not appertain to me…
I don' want them anymore…
They laughing ov me…
They organizing my end…
But I’m not successful to kill them…
I wish to protect them by me…
I wish to stay alone ... just a moment…
Hide me…
I don't want that this one black wrap me…
There are my glances that can' t see anything…
They are waiting me in trap…
They pretend that I watch the world through them...

I'm dropped…
I've seen it all, but I can't remember anything…
There is someone around me…
I wish that someone switch on some candles for me…
but anybody found them…
Suddenly everyone walk off…
But I can't scream…
It's going to happen something terrible…
I'm not ready...
Nothing is ready…
But all must happen…
All that I don't want…
All that I don't hope…
My glance stop…
There are someone that are crying…
Everything around me is weeping…
Everything is burning, but my skin is so cold…
I've lifted…
My little spirit is running across a path ov a constellation…
Nobody notice me…
A universe make by tears that became a mirror…
But it not reflecting anything…
It's only absorbing…

Here is an enter…

A cemetery...
The shadows are driving me towards six opened tombs...
Then they maliciously laughing and leave me alone...
I assisting at the funeral ov my senses...
They are burying them one by one...
Alive...
The ground is so weighty....
And the flowers that I put are not appreciated...
For the first two corpses I want to be in guilt…
Others are already forgotten…
So, also they two are not moving…
They are motionless…
But I feel that they are trembling…
They are growling…
They have started to hate me…
This is all that I remember…
The emotions are turning to velvet…
My guilt increasing…

The velvet is so tender but the hands that are touching him aren't the mine…
I can touch only those shadows…
And they two are keeping one to growl, they require that I forget them…
They want my insensibility…
They don't want my sobs…
Now there's no need to remember…
They want only that I walk away from here…
And take away with me my shadows…
I bring with me a candle…
I'll take it for me…

The return in the universe ov the tears cost me the life…
I was been punished for the abdication to lament those six victims…
The punishment is sudden…
Between my screams and cries the infinite mirror is splitting in sharp glasses ov pain…
And it all crash on me...
Now I will never found the enter…
Not even the exit…
I'm running with thousands glasses hammered in my flesh…
Then I fall in knees…
A glass pierce exactly the center ov my hearth…
I hope that everything will end quickly...
Then arrive they…
They still laughing…

Six tears are gaping on the frozen floor…

Before I’m covered with the black velvet in the pieces ov the glass I can behold my image without a sense…
For an instant I’m enchanted…
An instant in which I can notice that the shadows tear away from me the candle that I keep from my funeral…
I'm lose that one who was dear for me...
Now it's anything really end...
The velvet cover also my eyes…
I can hear only them humiliations and my blood that is flowing everywhere… Please bleed away from me...
I beg, bleed away from me...
Bleed away...

11/2002